「劉蕪，」我還是這樣喚他，「我不回去，也不做勞什子皇后，我現在挺好的。」

劉蕪當我要面子，依舊柔聲勸慰我：「之前讓魏姐姐受委屈了，但那是迫不得已的權宜之計，以后都不會再有了。」

劉蕪還說，他已經將覬覦我的三寶太監抄沒家產，處以極刑，為我報了仇。

「和你沒有關系，是我不愿意回去了，我在宮外活得很自由、很開心，回宮不開心，你是想讓我開心還是不開心？」

雖然我一直記掛著劉蕪，但再回到他身邊，我也不會開心。

我無法欺騙自己，那個為了我，以命相搏的男子已經不在了。

眼前的劉蕪，是他也不是他。

現在的他，可以為了皇位將我關入大牢，委屈我第一次，以后就會為了拉攏大臣廣納后宮，委屈我第二次，會為了延綿子嗣，委屈我第三次……

我在他身邊，永遠只會提心吊膽，患得患失，不會開心，亦不快樂。

劉蕪見我態度堅定，臉色沉了下來。

我直接行跪拜大禮，求劉蕪成全。

「魏姐姐既然不想和我走，那我就把劉蘅帶走吧，總不好……讓他一直裝瘋賣傻的過一輩子。」

劉蕪果然不全是為我而來。

我低著頭不說話。

見我沒有任何反應，站在我面前的劉蕪冷冷道：「看來魏姐姐早就知道他是裝瘋了吧。」                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                

「在我心里，他一直是個真瘋子。」其實，我有時也自己不清楚，為何要將劉蘅這個麻煩帶在身邊。

我只是，在看著癡呆蠢笨的劉蘅時，才能確定，前世發生的一切，不是我臆想出來的夢境。

我再次言辭懇切，「小女蒲柳之姿，無才無德，實在配不上母儀天下的后位。

」

久久，劉蕪的嘆息聲傳來，「原是我不配，配不上魏十娘的真心。」

劉蕪走后，我到處找尋劉蘅的身影，卻發現他不見了。

也不知他是被劉蕪抓走了，還是見劉蕪來，抱起鴨子就逃了。

總之，我再也沒有見過他。

多年以后，劉蕪一心撲在政績上，開疆擴土，輕徭薄賦，嚴肅官吏，后宮充盈，子孫眾多，成為青史留名的千古一帝。

而我在劉蕪走后，因受不了村民向我投來的異樣目光，同樣選擇了離開。

這次，我撿起弓箭，成為出入山野的矯健獵手，靠將獵到的野味兒拿到山下販賣為生。

我走進常去的飯館，正欲將獵物交給買家，門口的吵嚷聲吸引了我的注意。

廚房的小胖頭在和一名流浪漢搶鴨子。

「狗賊，敢偷我的鴨子，」小胖頭將流浪漢踹倒在地，「影響了小爺做烤鴨，看我不把你烤了！」

「不，不要傷害她，它是我的妻子！」流浪漢被抓著頭發被迫抬起頭，露出了熟悉的臉龐。

是劉蘅。

他被揍得鼻青臉腫，仍將鴨子死死護在懷里，聲音顫抖且堅定，「她是我的妻子，我不能讓她死。」

「哈哈，死瘋子，把鴨子當妻子。」

圍觀的人哄堂大笑，小胖頭也笑了兩聲，眼見拽不動劉蘅懷里的鴨子，又被后廚催著，便索性懶得跟傻子計較，放手回屋。

但在二人的拉扯中，被命運攥住喉嚨的鴨子已經氣絕身亡。

劉蘅抱著死鴨子，哇哇大哭。

我來到他面前，從懷里掏出剛焐熱的一吊錢，掛在了死鴨脖子上，對他說：「好好安葬你的妻子。」

劉蘅望著我，目光呆滯，鼻涕流了滿臉。

「曾經有個人，也像你這般，護著他的妻子。」

我擦掉眼角的淚水，頭也不回地走向熙熙攘攘的大街，消失在茫茫人海。

文/橘貓大俠